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A letter to my Princess

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A Letter To My Princess...

Today was weird baby... it was like... it was like if I were inside a dream all day. Maybe it is because most of the day I slept, ha ha, but really, all the time I was awake, it looked just like a dream... I remembered a lot of things... I will try to explain this you princess...

First, with my friends, it was funny; we were watching scrubs again talking how the tv show adjusts to our lives, because a lot of things that happen in the show, had happened to us! I think that’s why we like it... anyway... after they left, I cleaned the party room and went back to my room, I just laid down on the bed for a few time, I was thinking about you and watching your pictures in the electronic picture frame next to my bed... you know what was going through my mind? Well, first I was remembering the day we met, I remember how I felt, how I talked with Christian all night even if I didn’t know you well... It’s strange because sometimes I used to get sad, because when I thought about love before, I always thought I never was going to find it, I was watching all the people in the streets, in the school, everywhere and I felt like I was alone... I mean, it could be there 10, 50, 100 or more people just next to me, but I did feel alone anyway.... I really was thinking about being single all the time, ha ha, because I saw some girls that wanted to be with me but there were a lot of reasons why I didn’t want stay with them, like: the look after money only, they are stupid sometimes (I mean, really stupid ha ha) and most of all, I didn’t like them nor love them... I think that is enough reason to not be with someone...

Later, 2 friends from my sister’s office came to my house to have lunch, so I had lunch with them, my mother and my sister, later they went back to the office and I stayed home... I went back to my room and I was in bed again, I was thinking about you again!!! ha ha, maybe you were thinking a lot about me too and that’s why I was thinking so much about you, like we were connected or something!!! Well, we are always connected with our love :)

Anyway, I was thinking about you and then I fell asleep, and I was having strange dreams...

I was in a forest, alone, I was just walking, with no one to talk, nothing to do, with no way to go, I was just walking forward... then I found a really really big tree, it was so beautiful! With all its green leaves, some squirrels were there running to the top of the tree... I sat there, just to feel de earth and the calm of the forest... then it started to rain, but I didn’t move because that was no storm, it was just soft rain, I was closing my eyes to feel the rain falling in my face and hear it hitting the leaves... it was so relaxing, so good, and it was better when I opened my eyes because there was you, next to me, under the rain hugging me... wow, you looked so beautiful my love... I was just very happy, then you stand up and took my hand, you walked me to a little cabin made of wood, there, in the same forest, so far from the world we know, so far from any other person, so far from everything.... but we were so together.... it was like the best moment of my life... there was this fireplace in the cabin, we had soft music, like lounge or jazz music, you were taking a bath and I was still wet because of the rain, but I was preparing some hot chocolate to drink... later you came out from the bath and give me a kiss... you very happy! Then I gave you a cup of hot chocolate, I took a bath and then went to the fireplace, to sit on the couch with you... just to drink hot chocolate, hug you and watch together the flames in the fireplace...

Later, we kissed, and we kissed and we kissed.... it was not like a lot of kisses, it actually was just one, but this one was very very long, very romantic, very lovely... I don’t know how to describe it!!! it was perfect!!! I mean, we were kissing with so much love, very slow and hugging at the same time princess... it was such a good moment.... then you told me to lay on the couch, so I did and then you laid on me... you didn’t want go to bed, you wanted to sleep over me, on the couch.... I hugged you and waited for you to sleep, and then I sleep....

All these things I tell you baby, I’m not sure I was really dreaming, day dreaming or it was just my imagination, but what I can tell you for sure is that I loved to think that and to feel that....

It was strange too because later, after I wake up, I had dinner with my parents and my sister and her boyfriend, and for some strange reason, my parents were remembering how they lived when they got married, and their house at that time, and when I was baby and my sister too... you know? Funny because everything they were saying, I was thinking about our situation! :)

I mean, if they were talking about their first home, I was thinking like> "mmmm, we don’t know yet where can we live!!! But that will be when I go to China!"

Then they talked about me and my sister, and I was like: "I have no idea of when would my princess like to have baby! ha ha, but we will when she wants, we will be very happy!"

A lot of things they said, and a lot of things I think of... but, you know what is the important thing??? That I always get to the same conclusion... I really really think you are the love of my life :)

I mean, every time I think about you, I feel something I cannot describe in my stomach! ha ha, people say that it feels like little butterflies, I don’t know if that is the best way to describe it, but I do feel great, and I know that means I love you very much!

I know that every time I talk with you, I feel better, I cant be ok without talking with you!!!! Those 3 days we didn’t talk, I was not ok!!! I really needed to talk with my super girlfriend!!!

It is also strange when my friends are here, because I sometimes don’t know what I want, I mean, sometimes I get out of school and I want see friends, so I call them and tell them to see me at my house, but when they are there, I feel like I want them to go because I want be alone just thinking about you, or sleep earlier to see you at qq or something... and when they not come, I want them to come because I want talk with them about you, or just have some friends time! I think that situation also means that I am so much in love with you...

Sometimes I just want cry, I know you don’t like, but it’s like.... I feel very bad because I cannot do anything!!!! like today, I was very tired and when you went to take bath I fell asleep! I have to tell you 2 things about that, ha ha ha, the first one is that I always sleep when you take bath, ha ha ha, but the other one thing explains what happened today... it is just that when you went to take bath, I sleep again next to the computer waiting for you but today I forgot to put the volume at maximum again, so that’s why when you came back and send me message in QQ I didn’t wake up at that moment, because I didn’t hear it!!! Anyway, I explain you all this because today I felt very very very bad about that, I mean, I fell asleep and you were waiting for me!! I wanted to explain but you wanted to sleep.... you a little angry with me I know... and then you left to go sleep... I was worried about you angry but, I can’t do anything!! I mean, if I were there, I could go running to you and say "please forgive me baby!!!" and hug you, or call you, or give you flower, or promise you a dinner to repair that situation... I don’t know, anything!!! but we are so far that it hurts!!! I think the same is for you... for me is very very difficult being so much far, I mean, I would like be with you all the time... but trust me, one day we will be together all the time, I will never stop loving you because of the long distance or any other reason, ok my love? :)

Ha, today I wrote a lot, right baby???

I think I go now princess, I want sleep, now I promise I will not sleep while I wait for you when you take bath ok??? ha ha ha :)

I love you baby, really really, I say the truth, I really mean it, I swear it!!! You are the love of my life!!! I wouldn’t change this for anything in the world!!! never never never!!!! Your love is the most valuable treasure in the world :)

Te amo muqizimo my love, wo tai tai tai ai ni, wo de tai piao liang nu peng you!!!! (hope I wrote everything fine! ha ha).

Zai jian!

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